Ben, as long as you are pretty happy I think you are at least a couple steps ahead of most people. So just be thankful for that and everything else will work itself out in time, I promise!

Hey I think I am going to join a gym that makes me happy :-D

People, situations can be too fucked up. Or just plain stupid. I'm half way in a situation I normaly try to avoid. But I guess thats what you do when you have a friendship possibly on the line. Even though its only one and the other closet friends of that particular one already would like to see your body rotting in a dark ally someplace. Doesn't make for a very comfortable situation yet somehow you get asked to be there, and go. Why is it that people cannot let their friends live their lifes with out getting so overly and personaly involved with their friends. Friends are close and personal yes but the extent i am talking about just seems overkill. Controlling, maniuplative, jelous, angered, it just seems wrong and evil to me. I have done nothing to said partys who protest my very being. Their friend I however tried to be civil and gentel as possible with as i do care a ton and took no pleauser in any of what happened. but it doesnt seem to matter to them in the slightest. Its their one friend 1st... not them, not anyone else but the 1 friend. just seems fucked to me...

I am lost

I guess it doesnt really matter too much. It was more of a frustrated rant than anything.

I know exactly what you are talking about. It is in a friend's nature to defend their so-called "fallen comrade", as at the time she was operating on a less that strong, but not necessarily weak, level. Besides, you cannot blame them. All they hear is one perspective, and the second view was never offered. So not much can be divined other than a very upset and stressed out girl is angry, and justice must be inflicted. It happens. Just be glad that you did not run into Dendran. That might, alright, would have been ugly.